Where She Went by Gayle Forman Review: Adam Makes Me Depressed

September 8, 2014 by Jeann @ Happy Indulgence | 5 stars, Books, Reviews

Where She Went by Gayle Forman Review: Adam Makes Me DepressedWhere She Went by Gayle Forman
Series: If I Stay #2
Published by Dutton Books on April 5, 2011
Source: Purchased
Genres: Contemporary, Fiction, Romance, Young Adult
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It's been three years since Mia walked out of Adam's life.

And three years he's spent wondering why.

When their paths cross again in New York City, Adam and Mia are brought back together for one life-changing night.

Adam finally has the opportunity to ask Mia the questions that have been haunting him. But will a few hours in this magical city be enough to lay their past to rest, for good - or can you really have a second chance at first love?

Michelle’s Thoughts 

That is literally my reaction and the way my family members reacted to my craziness when I finished this book. I was heart-broken; not myself anymore. But either way, Where She Went changed me… for the second time. And the second time was even better than the first.

“So, this is how it’s become? This is what I’ve become? A walking contradiction? I’m surrounded by people and feel alone. I claim to crave a bit a normalcy but now that I have some, it’s like I don’t know what to do with it, don’t know how to be a normal person anymore.”

Oh, Adam. :'(

From this experience with re-reading this sequel after watching the movie for the first book, I am lost without words. Gayle Forman has broken my heart, and for sure has shattered others’s as well. When a beautiful male fictional character is broken-hearted, readers tend to be too. And I just didn’t know what to do to calm myself and believe that everything will be okay.

This time around, I paid attention to the feelings. I never loved Adam that much as I do now, and when Jamie Blackley played him in the movie for the previous novel, he became my dream man. He acted perfectly like him, and after that bawling-experience, I just wanted to remember and go on with the characters’s lives and continue on with their story.

“I look at her there in the shadows of the shut-down city, her hair falling onto her face, and I can see her trying to figure out if I’ve lost it. And I have to fight the urge to take her by the shoulders and slam her against a shuttered building until we feel the vibrations ringing through both of us. Because I suddenly want to hear her bones rattle.”

As you may know, the movie/first book left us off at a horrifying cliffhanger. Many people complained that they didn’t know what happened next. I guess that’s the magic of novels, right?

Before reading this—you’ve really got to take a few notes:

  •  Adam is depressed. He’s seriously and horribly depressed and there’s so many scary signs that he shows throughout the first half of the novel. It’s no joke. Without Mia, he’s a scrap of paper on the street. If you love somebody, then your life may be perfect, but without them, things can be shattered all the time. :'(
  • Mia has changed. She’s confident—happy, even. Her personal demons are still haunting her, but she’s changed a lot since her past self. Sure, three years have passed, but she’s come to be wiser, and older of course. I love the new her.
  • The writing is magnificent—as always coming from Gayle Forman. Going into Adam’s POV, the person who meant the most to Mia and the person who hurt her the most in ways was difficult. Who can master the thoughts of the guy who made Mia stay when all she’s ever known was ruined? In some ways, I understand why she blamed him for her disaster emotions.

It’s three years after the past events that took Mia’s family away and struck Adam’s love for her to a whole other level. In three years, things have changed. Mia has graduated Julliard, and she’s a cello-star. Beginning touring the world has always been her dream, and she’s finally made it there. Adam, on the other hand, is famous in the music world as well. He’s a rockstar, and Shooting Star is now known all over the world. But at the same time, Adam feels alone. Something—someone is missing in his life. One night, when both are stuck together in New York for one night, they meet again and that’s a night that can possibly bring all of their good memories back together.

“Jittery is how I normally feel. Jittery I’ve gotten used to. But ever since we kicked off our tour with three shows at Madison Square Garden, I’ve been feeling something else. Like I’m about to be sucked into something powerful and painful. Vortexy.”

I have no bad things to say about this book. Literally everything about it was a perfect 5 stars, and I wouldn’t have wanted it to end any other way. Mia and Adam? They’re the best characters you can possibly read about in a dark-contemporary romance read. Their connection is high above the stars and back down, and you can’t possibly seem to compare their love to anyone else’s.

I’M ENVIOUS. I’m so jealous of their love. After reading this, I just laid there and cried and cried and cried because it’s just so not fair. Why can’t there be any BEAUTIFUL GUYS LIKE ADAM? No one can beat his emotions and strong love. He seriously never stopped loving Mia, and I praise the book lords for making that possible for us readers, because I want something like that. 🙂


Gayle Forman’s writing is addicting. It’s lush, it’s like biting onto a candy apple—sweet, but then tough and sour. You feel like you can’t stop biting (reading) it because your feels will go on and throw you around. It’s literally impossible to tear out of, and you need to be part of this if you aren’t already. The story was amazing, and the magic and light of Mia and Adam’s story lit on and will stay in my heart forever.

“Hated me? Why?” “You made me stay.” She says it quietly, and it almost gets lost in the wind and the traffic and I’m not sure I heard her. But then she repeats it louder this time. “You made me stay!” And there it is. A hollow blown through my heart, confirming what some part of me has always known. She knows.”

Rating: 5 out of 5 gorgeous stars


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53 responses to “Where She Went by Gayle Forman Review: Adam Makes Me Depressed

  1. Thank you! <3 Ahh I think a lot of people are going to be doing this in the next couple of weeks/months, or they'll begin reading the series from the start afterward! Re-reads are soo awesome!

  2. Brilliant review! I loved the sequel as well, I thought it was beautiful. I did the same thing you did, saw the movie and then felt like I needed to reread Where She Went. I needed more of the story and the characters. It was so much better the second time around.
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  3. Laila BC

    hands down i love this book much much better…coz i love my romance that are heart breaking, can devastate

    me and break me into a thousand pieces and put me back whole again whoa! love ur review! i have the same feels for it too 🙂

  4. First, Isla. And then this. Oh my god, Michelle, I feel like hugging you! It's like your my soul mate!

    I was very hesitant to read Where She Went even though I loved If I Stay, because I didn't like that Mia and Adam broke up. But when I watched If I Stay (which was very beautiful), I was like, I HAVE TO READ THE SEQUEL NOW. I read it right after watching the movie and in one seating. I love it. I love Adam. I think I love this more than I love If I Stay. It's amazing. I guess having seen the movie did affect how I felt about the book but right now I'm not thinking straight. I'm just feeling everything!

    Adam's POV was very depressing, and at one point I hated Mia. But that line where she said "You made me stay!", that undid me. I can go on and on… but wow, thank you for doing this review, Michelle. Another book to fangirl over. <3
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    • AHHHH! YAY! I'm just going to go on with my reviews expecting you to agree with me, book-soulmate of mine! xD <3

      I didn't like it either! But at least Gayle didn't want everything to become picture-perfect once Mia woke up. That's exactly how I felt, but instead I wanted to re-read it again, LOL! It was sooo amazing. I'm still cheering on and on about it to this day!

      MIAAAA…! She has absolutely changed between the two books. In the first, she was weak. Here, she has become someone who can easily push others away from them. You're welcome, lovely, and thank you for visiting with your awesome thoughts!

  5. I really enjoyed your review, Michelle, even if I didn't love Where She Went nearly so much as you, or even Adam as a character; I really liked how you gave me a different perspective on who he could be, what he might be feeling, and I'll try to keep some of what you wrote in mind when I eventually get to a re-read of the two books, which I'm feeling very inspired to do. I did grow to like him a lot more by the end of this novel, and liked him well enough in the first, but for a lot of this I found him incredibly irritating. It shall be interesting to see what I think the second time around! ( :
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    • Thank you so much for your thoughtful thoughts! <3 You've absolutely added a smile onto my face! Second time's the charm, and now that I agree with that saying even more than I ever did before. I really hope that you will come to love this even more than your first reading! 😀

  6. I haven't picked up the sequel yet! I enjoyed the first book, but it wasn't as amazing as I'd expected. Everyone keeps telling me that Where She Went is a lot better, and from your review it seems to be as well. I watched the movie over the weekend and sobbed a lot, so I might need to control my tearducts before diving into this one 😛 Wonderful review Michelle x
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    • I have to agree with the other people—this is much better! After reading this masterpiece I want to go out and read the first again! I remember everyone crying in the theatre as well—but it was all silent, depressing bawling, haha. Thank you, Joy! <3

  7. Aw, Sar, you just made my day with your stunning comment! <3 AHHH LOL! Adam is life—Adam is everything. OMG have you read Just One Day? It's in my bookshelf but I have a feeling that it won't be as amazing as If I Stay and this beauty here. Let's go on a ninja hunt and steal her grocery list! xD <3

  8. I would totally go for it! You've watched the movie, know the characters, read this one…. You're awesome! Same! It'd be so adorable! Hopefully they'll use Jamie and Chloe again for the sequel movie, I'd hate to see other actors act like the older Mia & Adam! Thank you!

  9. I'll be re-reading it over and over, trust me. Gushing is my priority to make sure that all of you wonderful people will read this book! x) Thanks, Nick! <3 I can't wait to hear your thoughts on these two lovelies!

  10. I actually gave it a 4/5 rating. It wasn't the best book in the world, but the movie sure was. I'll have to go back and re-read the book one day! It is! The writing and story is so much stronger. I like the fact that the movie is indie and all, that's what makes it special about liking it! Thank you!

  11. Whenever I see a review for either this or If I Stay it's always awkward because I'm probably the only person in the entire world who wasn't a huge fan of If I Stay. Maybe I should give Where She Went a try though, because it sounds absolutely wonderful! I did like Gayle Forman's prose in If I Stay, so I'm glad that was a highlight here as well. 🙂 Thanks for sharing Michelle, and, as always, BRILLIANT review! <3
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    • Oh. Well, I gave it a 4/5 star rating, which isn't amazing either, but I thought that it was pretty great if you ask me. You should! It's a mixture of everything that you want in a perfect novel. I hope that you love this, Zoe, and thank you! <3

  12. I think I have just spoiled myself. Hahahaha. Kidding aside, I am still on the fence whether to read If I Stay and then, watch the film adaptation. I don't know. The recent film of Moretz (aside from If I Stay), Carrie, left me traumatized. Anyways, this review is brimming with so many emotions. It's very clear that you are head over heels inlove with Adam. I hope you will not snatch him away from Mia. Hehehe.

    Oh that after-three years reunion was really poignant. And those quotes are totally lovely and heartwrenching, Michelle. Seriously, should I pick this series right now or just be contented in reading reviews? I don't know if my heart can handle all the pain in this book.

    Awesome review!
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    • LOL! Go on and read the first book! I always love to compare books to the film adaptation! OMG I LOVED CARRIE! Chloe is such an amazing actress. Every role that she does suits her perfectly. LOL noo I would never break their gorgeous relationship apart! Ugh there's so many more quotes that I would've added but it'd be a gazillion! GO FOR IT! Haha, it's worth it! Thank you!

  13. Aww girl *hugs* I know how you feel and truly me it's totally normal to feel this way after finishing this book cause yes all the feels! Adam is someone I want to hug so much as he truly needs that also Gayle's writing is something that's timeless. That girl has really got some serious talent there. Great review, Michelle 🙂
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  14. OMG amazing review, seriously, no kidding. I did love this book, and I have re-read it, but I feel like you really GOT the book. I've heard some people criticising that Adam is a major dick in this book, but the short of it is, he's lonely and he's depressed and he's anxious and he lost the love of his life in the most awful circumstances imaginable. Gayle Forman's writing prowess is MUCH WOW. You made me kind of REALLY want to re-read If I Stay and Where She Went again (but you know – neverending TBR pile awaits).

    • Thanks, Cass! <3 I DID. Like once I surpassed Chapter 1, I knew where my feelings were going. 🙂 I hardly get that with books! HE IS NOT. OMG! That's depressing to even hear about. How can he be one? Just because he goes AWOL from the media and Shooting Star doesn't make him a jerk! Don't they ship Midam? I have now learned that re-reading is awesome, I have to do it more often! Yes, when my TBR pile lets me squeeze a read in. 🙂

  15. YES YES YES. A thousand times yes to everything you said!

    I felt so bad for Adam, I just wanted to hug him over and over 🙁 AND THEIR LOVE. God. I want a love like that!!!

    I enjoyed this book so much more than If I Stay, as I felt it really explored the characters a whole lot more 😀 so happy you loved it too!

  16. I read this awhile ago and I absolutely loved it. I just saw the movie last week, and now reading this review makes me want to read Where She Went again. Adam is an amazing guy and I loved reading from his perspective. When I saw the movie I had wished they had combined the two books and made one movie – I'd watch it even if it went for four hours. Having read both books I knew the ending didn't end there and needed more! I've been telling my friends who saw the movie to go and read Where She Went straight away.

    Great review 🙂
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  17. I seriously NEED to read this series asap. I've heard nothing but good things, and your gushing review has me so very excited. It sounds like it's gorgeously written and I absolutely love the sound of the characters. I have both books, and I think I might pick them up soon! 🙂

    Lovely review, Michelle!

  18. Wow, I loved your review and the gifs as usual MIch! I read the first book and thought it was just okay, and wow, Adam just sounds so emotional and broken in this one. It would definitely be a tear jerker I think! I'm glad Mia's maturity kind of balanced it out here. One day you will find an Adam for yourself hun xoxo

  19. If I Stay was good but I didn't enjoy it as much as everyone else. I found it a little slow pacing for my liking but nonetheless it still touched my heart. I'm willing to read Where She Went because I've heard it's so much better than the first one. I'm excited to see the movie but I haven't really heard much about it yet. I feel like they didn't advertise it well enough. Great review!
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    • I actually love them! Me crying in books gets myself to realize that the story really touched me or saddened me and the author did a good job at writing it! Yeah… I came out of the theatre bawling, haha. You should! I bet you don't even have to read the actual book to read this one. 🙂